but for all the mistakes you've made
all the wrong turns that you take
can you ever find a way
will you ever get away
from the start of your choices
to the ends of decisions
it's a journey we all take
but yet, somehow, i feel
mostly a mistake.
Hmm, always pondered on this. The decisions ive made have really shaped how i look at things now. Not always positive, but not all negative.
I think loads of people have questioned why i'm doing journalism. Passion? not yet, although someday i hope. Money? ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Job prospect? HA. erm, get to travel? Well yes maybe. and why UK? cos. erm. it's nice. See the decisions and all the questions, never fully answered till i really got here.
I don't regret going away from home, don't regret doing journalism, but there's a whole load more.
But that's what they call the Past.
Philippians 4:4 Rejoice! Rejoice in the Lord always.
See that's one good decision now. (insert big smiley?) decided not to.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Haven't got time to do much updating cos of the increasing amount of work and essays that i have to get done. Then again, after what, 2 months here, it has been quite a journey. All the things we take for granted, food on the table when you want it, clothes washed, easy transport, language. The big difference? support. i think it's so easy to just wake up, make a cup of coffee, put on clean clothes, and walk out of the house. Here, you gotta make sure oven's switched off, clean your own stuff, manage your finances, get your own breakfast bloody early in the morning, wash your clothes, all that stuff.
But once you get into the groove it's alright i guess. It's quite funny though, meeting new friends from new church, getting to cell, spending time with God. i guess we're just all lost in a foreign place, but with a common goal. i cannot say i miss my friends too much, or my family though. i miss the support, the fun, but since i got here, i've grown up so much i feel (strangely enough) i've outgrown all these emotional attachments. see it's different. i miss God so much that i seek him more here (makes things easier that there is very little else that i rather do, like going out and all that) than back home, but ironically enough, the revival here is quite stagnant.
i'm coming out of a phase of life i guess. No more fancy clothes, dress to impress, going to church cos it's popular, going out on sats , insulting people with the same tongue you use to praise God, giving the 'i dont care' attitude when you do care, or acting like you care. if you think that's you, well, honestly, grow up.
on that note, i'm still growing up though. so i guess we're all stuck together on the same boat.
But once you get into the groove it's alright i guess. It's quite funny though, meeting new friends from new church, getting to cell, spending time with God. i guess we're just all lost in a foreign place, but with a common goal. i cannot say i miss my friends too much, or my family though. i miss the support, the fun, but since i got here, i've grown up so much i feel (strangely enough) i've outgrown all these emotional attachments. see it's different. i miss God so much that i seek him more here (makes things easier that there is very little else that i rather do, like going out and all that) than back home, but ironically enough, the revival here is quite stagnant.
i'm coming out of a phase of life i guess. No more fancy clothes, dress to impress, going to church cos it's popular, going out on sats , insulting people with the same tongue you use to praise God, giving the 'i dont care' attitude when you do care, or acting like you care. if you think that's you, well, honestly, grow up.
on that note, i'm still growing up though. so i guess we're all stuck together on the same boat.
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